back with a vengeance...

hi my blogger....
i am now back...since i last wrote maybe about 6 or so months ago...
it's been a long time coming....but today..now..i feel the urge to write again....not sure y..it just is..as all things shld be....no reasons needed for something to happen does it?
anyway...
life has been up and down since the last time i wrote...but i think it's fair to say that life has been stagnant...not really liking it but i always keep a positive mindframe..and just live day by day and figuring out what's tomorrow going to be.....otherwise...i'll go nuts thinking and hoping for something to happen.....which may or may not happen......the best i can do is to do the things that i need to do to achieve what i want to achieve tomorrow....that's all....i can't worry abt the future...i need to live in the NOW.......
and now is ....... i am attached to someone...someone lovely, someone really adorable....someone that i can see myself spending time with, i can take care of....and i can rely on.....
it's great to be in love....or shld i say it's great to have someone in ur life whom u can be with.....it's the best feeling....
but it's just a part of my life...there other things in my life that i need to address which i think i neglected for a bit coz of my love life...and that doesn't work as well.........
i see life is like a wheel, with it's spikes that pull it together...if one spike is missing or crooked...or even non-existent then the wheel will not function properly.......so....that's going to be my focus....to address ALL aspects of my life and give fair amt of time and effort in each.....i think in theory this is easy, but it is defintely one of the areas that i am struggling with.....always keep on learning from mistakes, from others and seek opinions from those experienced onees......

at the moment, i am in jakarta....my home.....or is it? i have now lived in Sydney, Australia for abt 9 years...can u believe that!?!!?! it's what i call my 'adopted' home......so when i arrived in jakarta, i feel so weird.....and i have stayed here for three weeks and still i have not adapted to it being my home.....where is my home.......a good friend of mine used to say...that home is where u make it...or where u build it....it's not defined by location, country or boundaries...or what people say...it all depends on u........so......it would be safe to say home is where my heart is.....and at the moment my heart is in Taiwan....and that's where my love is......there...i will build my life....love, career, family......my 'spikes' in life.........

i got so many things i want to write........i shld write something abt my activities rather my inner feelings here...but i will do that next time....

til then,

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